Calcu's blog

well an end of an era, im much happier, though somewhat frustrated, idecided (after a meditation process) that i enjoy the calming effect it has, it leaves me feeling peacefull and happy.

my best mate, has told me im very mony and cant do much to look after myself, so i have decided to change this (not only for him but to also to better myself in the future)
i cant live my life like this, and im still youngm, i intend to change everything, and see more as well as do more.
on that note i went out and got a puppy! (well not mine per sey, more like my room mates but hey i chipped in and are now demanding some of the booty)
so this for now, but i finally am happy, and am gonna experiment in the whole spiritual future, and find peace, happiness and meaning!

so i walked home last night after a really good day out, and found that fucker flat mate of mine drunk out of his face,

it gets worse, he starts slagging me off to my best friend, and makes rude sexual remarks to my other house mate.

argh i dunno what im gonna do, im actually scared of him. and lying in my bed listening to him laugh creeps me out.
it makes me feel so alone, and vulnerable. its like why should i feel like this in my own house?

and now (coincidently) my best friend (who also lives with me) is being funny with me, i dunno our friendships probably over. i feel like im in a bit of a ditch
of course there are those harsh people, who are gonna sit htere, and be like thats your fault deal with it.

but i dunno, ive been feeling so down cos of this guy, and he seems to be the only problem i have. some encouraging words would be nice. tell me im not alone.

does anyone out there wanna reach out to me?

As always the excitement builds over as i start something i used to love, that is to say writting.

and as this is my first blog i find myself sitting here, in what seems to be utter contempt, drinking my wine (and at a young age i assume ill be an alchoholic soon) and smoking my cigerette i wonder what amazing subject to write about.

so i can start with talking about me, why not right? this is my blog and i can as pretencious or stuck up as i like (for the record im a nice guy)

im a 19 year old man, slowly moving through life, though it feels like swimming through mud. like is getting much to difficult, yet i enjoy the minor tasks of everyday life, as well as the little pleasures,
have you ever stopped to listen to the birds, or maybe feel the sun on your shoulders? its worth the moment i admit.

i cant help but blabber on, i should really plan these things out and not just go nuts, oh well theres nothing i can do now.

im, a philosopher at heart and i have the worse housemate in the world. though i live with 4 othersi love them all except the pig head called jamie.

who steals from me, my clothes and uses my fone. invades my space and is genuinly rude. bloody drug users,
grre thinking about him makes me mad.

anywho not much to say, ill leave it here, thanks for listening.

next one will be more interesting i promise.