well an end of an era, im much happier, though somewhat frustrated, idecided (after a meditation process) that i enjoy the calming effect it has, it leaves me feeling peacefull and happy.
my best mate, has told me im very mony and cant do much to look after myself, so i have decided to change this (not only for him but to also to better myself in the future)
i cant live my life like this, and im still youngm, i intend to change everything, and see more as well as do more.
on that note i went out and got a puppy! (well not mine per sey, more like my room mates but hey i chipped in and are now demanding some of the booty)
so this for now, but i finally am happy, and am gonna experiment in the whole spiritual future, and find peace, happiness and meaning!